It's 3:30pm, Jasper is finally sleeping, and so far the only chores I have managed to accomplish today are transporting the laundry from the drier to the bed and trimming 3 of Jasper's fingernails. Jasper coincidentally has managed to cut himself twice on the face today with his other nails. So, what am I doing writing instead of trimming the rest or putting away laundry? Well, this once neat-freak girl has learned that chaos is a neccessary aspect of motherhood. I have relaxed about the state of my home a little (and luckily my husband has picked up many of the areas where I slack off!) since Jasper came along. Now, when he sleeps, I divide my time between what has to get done and what I would like to do for myself. So right now, I am stealing a little time before he wakes to bring you other such revelations and changes from the past couple of weeks.
Another thing I have discovered recently is that Jasper continually rocks my world more and more every day. I keep reaching new plateaus of thinking I couldn't possibly love being his mama any more than I already do, and then he comes up with some new coo or new way of interacting with me that bursts my heart open even more. He is amazing. He LOVES talking, especially when he is getting his diaper changed. He looks me right in the eye as he gurgles and says, "A-Gooooo, ooo-aaahh," but, with the sweet intent expression on his face, it seems like he is saying the most important thing in the world. Then his eyes stray to the ceiling fan and he spends several minutes enthusiastically chattering away and laughing in it's direction. I do believe the ceiling fan is his best friend.
Jasper loves being social. We went to a crowded holiday party at a friend's house just before Christmas. He wore this outfit:
and was thus the hit of the party, especially with the ladies. Seriously, he stayed up way past his bedtime and didn't have his usual evening meltdown. He was loving it. Until the car-ride home, during which he wailed the entire way. Poor little dude. I think we were all a little stressed.
Jasper had his first overnight trip on the winter solstice. We stayed in a nice rustic cabin in a campground on the Oregon coast. It was such a lovely time with just the three of us. Beautiful and sweet. It was nice to break up our routine a little bit and be in a new environment. But, of course, Jasper cried A LOT throughout the morning. Poor little dude.
Jasper is now 12 weeks old and is weighing in at 15 pounds and 1 ounce as of this morning. My latest revelation is that it is time for me to stop trying to stuff him into my favorite 0-3 month clothes. They are just too tight! He is growing up (and out). It is time I accepted this and allow him to wear exclusively the roomier 3-6 month clothes. His developmental changes are speeding up too. Jasper still doesn't love floor time. He manages to enjoy it for a few minutes at a time. And he especially doesn't love tummy time, which he can only stand for less than a minute at a time.
He is sooooo aware of his hands and is really intent on commanding them to cooperate with his mind. He loves using his hands to stroke the varying textures of different objects like my hands or Lucas', different fabrics, the plants, and even the cats. He is starting to get really good at grasping his toys and holding on to them for longer periods of time, and is even bringing them slowly to his mouth with more accuracy, not just banging himself in the cheek with them! He loves his playtime, until he doesn't. And then he is sure to let us know that he is DONE.
You may have caught on that Jasper cries a lot. We are learning that Jasper is very particular. Lucas said this morning that "the nut doesn't fall far from the tree," the tree being me in this case. (Wait, was he calling Jasper a nut?!?) Anyway, Jasper is very good at communicating what he doesn't want to be doing and when he is tired. I celebrate that he is a good communicator, and I am trying to learn how to be more diligently aware and responsive to his early cues to avoid meltdowns. He has a tendency to get himself worked up, his cry escalating really really fast when something is amiss and it just about breaks my heart into pieces. Now that I am being shown that all babies have their moments like this, I know I can approach them with more relaxation, focusing on surrounding him with love instead of my own stress of being unable to fix what ever is wrong. And as he gets older, we can focus on showing him how to regulate these emotions efficiently and healthily.